🍄 When life has other plans

Last time I wrote you, I said Session Soundtracks was coming soon.

That’s still true. But not as soon as I’d hoped.

I've needed to support my mum more recently, as a carer and a son, and meanwhile on what feels like a totally different track, my band played its first gigs on the last two weekends. As well as the practicality of everything involved, I've had an unusual mix of feelings depending on the time of the day: anticipatory grief, sadness, excitement, stress, love... I've felt at capacity in ways I didn't foresee, and I've been forced to re-prioritise.

It’s been a reminder that we don’t always get to choose the pace of life.

Sometimes the work isn’t pushing through, but stepping back and re-evaluating.

Asking: what really matters right now?

Right now, what matters most is being there for my mum, not just as a practical carer, but as a present and loving son. One thing I have been relearning in this role is that to do it well, I have to take care of myself, too. In this case, it means no further pressure, no forced timelines, and no pretending that I can do it all.

The same is true of integration. Some lessons take time to land. Sometimes, we’ve got to adjust our hopes, goals, or stories. Not because they were wrong, but because life is moving differently than expected. That’s still integration.

So Session Soundtracks is still coming, but it’ll come together in its time.

Here’s a question for you:

Where in your life might you need to readjust your expectations?
What might need to be postponed, reshaped, or let go of — just for now?

We can’t always have it all. Not all at once. But we can choose what matters most.

And there’s a freedom in that choice.

What did this bring up for you? Hit reply and let me know what's landed. I read all your replies.

📚 Microdose of Wisdom

"If you surrender to the wind, you can ride it.”

– Toni Morrison

🎵Psychedelic Supplements

To tide you over, another from the small collection I’m putting together for Session Soundtracks.

This one is expansive ambient journeys from Laraaji, Brian Eno, and Steve Roach. For timeless drifts, spacious meditation, or gentle landing after a deep experience. No lyrics, just slow, shimmering atmospheres.